Maybe it’s not a disappointment. Maybe it’s an opportunity. . .
Are you feeling disappointed? Have you been praying about something for what-feels-like-forever, and the end is nowhere in sight? Maybe you’ve started to wonder if God hears you or if He even cares. Maybe you feel like my son Alex did – abandoned.
And the worst part – it was all my fault!
It was seven years ago, but I remember it like it was yesterday. Alex made the 6th grade baseball team. We had just moved into a new house, were busy getting settled, and he had baseball practice. I dropped him off at school and went back home to help the guys carry our big armoire up the stairs to our bedroom. And by help, I mean watch because that’s all I could really do! It soon became clear it wouldn’t fit unless we took the railing off. We got pretty engrossed in this project. All of a sudden, the mom alarm in me went off – Alex! In the craziness of furniture fiasco, I had missed his pick-up time! I got in the car and flew to school.
There was Alex. On the curb. Alone. Feeling abandoned.
But once he saw me, he knew he wasn’t. He knew everything was okay. He knew he was safe and going home.
David felt this way, too. In Psalm 35, David cries out to God, begging Him to not be silent. David’s deliverance was delayed. God seemed to be taking a long time. David started to wonder if God heard him or if God even cared. But the truth is, God hears every prayer, and He answers according to His wisdom. He answers in His time.
Knowing that I’m not alone (even when I feel alone) helps me, and I hope it helps you, too. As I wait for answers to my prayers, I’m trying to not let the absence of an immediate answer cause me to doubt, to resent God, or to be disappointed. Instead, I’m trying to see it as an opportunity to deepen my faith.
“The Lord is the everlasting God, the creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and His understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength! They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” – Isaiah 40:28-31